The Mess Inside
Lyrics
We took a weekend, drove to Provo.
The snow was white and fluffy.
But a weekend in Utah won't fix what's wrong with us.
The gray sky was vast* and real cryptic above me.
I wanted you to love me like you used to do.
We took two weeks in** the Bahamas.
Went out dancing every night.
Tried to fight the creeping sense of dread with temporal things.
Most of the time I guess I felt alright.
But I wanted you to love me like you used to do.
But you cannot run
And you cannot hide,***
From the wreck we've made of our house,
And from the mess inside.
We went down to New Orleans
One weekend in the spring.
Looked hard for what we'd lost.^
It was painful to admit it, but we couldn't find a thing.
I wanted you to love me like you used to do.
We went to New York City in September.
Took the train out of Manhattan to the Grand Army stop.
Found that bench we'd sat together on a thousand years ago
When I felt such love for you I thought my heart was gonna pop.
I wanted you to love me like you used to do.
But I^^ cannot run.
and I can't hide.
from the wreck we've made of our house.
from the mess inside.
Banter
- You know, fellas and Isa, one great thing about San Francisco is you know, they were ahead of the curve on this whole thing. You go to other clubs now and people'll be hitting wax pens out in the house. But in San Francisco, they bring a giant bomber and smoke weed in the audience. [drum kick] They're not vaping some kinda boutique thing that has a name like Gaia's Blessing or something. Nah. It's a big, fat, it's a fattie. [cheering and off mic chatter] This is an electric guitar and I am a middle aged man. Don't ask me any questions or you'll be here all night. I will tell you all about it, but I won't refer to it with feminine pronouns 'cause that's gross. My guitar don't work either...nothing happened. I mean, I could play the acoustic, but I gave a whole lead-in about the electric guitar and whatnot. [Guitar works again, yay] I feel you are owed one of these [plays a cool guitar riff that I should probably recognize but do not]. (2023-10-05 August Hall)
Live Performances
Footnotes
- * Variant: "cruel" instead of "vast" (2023-10-05, 2023-10-27)
- ** Variant: "a cruise to" instead of "two weeks in" (2023-10-05, 2023-10-27)
- *** Variant line: "And I can't hide" (2023-10-27)
- ^ Variant line: "looked everywhere to try to find the thing we'd lost" (2023-10-27)
- ^^ Variant: "you" instead of "I" (2023-10-27)